Week 6: Let the Multiple Personality Disorder begin!

Day 38.

I’m proud of myself – I initially was afraid I’d post every day, multiple times a day until my ultrasound just as a way of keeping myself sane, but that doesn’t appear to be the case yet. Maybe every other day, but… I’m not in total freak-out mode yet. I think.

But speaking of sanity…

Last time, I could literally feel the mood swings hit. One minute I’d be fine, the next minute I knew I’d be crying at the bus stop for no reason (and then I would), so in some sense, it was easy to take in stride and laugh at. This time it’s a little more sinister – I’ll realize I’m in a bad mood or grumpy once I actually am in the middle of being grumpy, and I don’t feel the tears coming until I’m already sniffling (I knew I’d hit the mood swing stage when I was tearing up in solidarity with the anti-war protesters standing on the street corner when I biked home. And yes, I do feel strongly about the war, but I don’t usually cry about it at random biking down the street, although perhaps I should…).

Don’t pity me – feel sorry for my poor husband. The moods pass as quickly as they arrive, which is fine when I’m alone, but the poor guy keeps getting lectured, and that’s not OK. Fortunately, he’s a good sport.

Last time at this point is when the bleeding began, only to turn out 3 weeks later not to have been “nothing to worry about”. I’ve got my fingers crossed, and I’m trying to keep busy, but it turns out to be very hard not to think about, for the record.

Anyway, I’m gonna go hang out with my alternate personality now, and we’ll go cry over some TLC baby programs (fortunately, that’s for another post…).